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you can only believe in yourself
when someone believes in you first

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today was a really long day. art pe geometry are the most boring classes ever. in pe i actually ran. first time in about five months. i did it for the state. it was for the testing, you know? art was boring. math killed me. and drama was fine. a lot of my friends are in that class so it's all good. these past two days are going by so slowly. i thought today was thursday for some reason. sigh. this week is going to be very long and hard and boring. but it's all good. because spring break is coming up. :) i'll post later. xoxo

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i want to go to england so badly. it's really sad.

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well today [wednesday] went by pretty fast. literature was really hard. we watched of mice and men the movie. and it was soo hard not to cry. i wanted to leave the last ten minutes of the movie and go to the bathroom. but i knew i couldnt do that. so i tried to think of happy thoughts. but the thoughts i thought of just made me want to cry even more. at the end of the movie when george was on the train and then he imagined them walking off together tore my heart apart. and some people [KARA & SARAH] didn't understand why i was upset over the movie. how someone could not think it was at all sad is beyond me. lol. and then i had biology next. it was a very boring class period. i was looking forward to watching the video on whales. i found it soo interesting even though almost everyone else thought it was boring. all of elsorady's videos are now more intersting than they were at the beginning of the year. and then i had french. i wasn't paying attention during the lesson so i dont know what is happening in the lesson. and there's a quiz tomorrow. wish me luck :) i'll post again later.  _xoXo

note to kate: i hope you feel a whole lot better. and don't do it unless you want to. and don't do it just for your mom. do whatever you feel is the best thing to do. and i'm so sorry that it's not possible to forget the past. i have tried many times. i love you and feel better!

hey today was so much fun. kate kara and sarah came over to my house. and sarah was like 45 minutes late because she was doing her hair. yes i know.. like she has problems with her hair or whatever. and then we went to togos.. and then to safeway and starbucks and longs and jamba juice. and sarah started to talk to this old man. and it seemed like she was hitting on him. they had very interesting conversations apparantly. and then we walked back to my house. and it was just the sweetest thing. we were walking down this busy street and there was this car that passed that had this hot guy in the passenger seat and he through out a rose to us. and it landed right in front of our feet. and it was just so 'aww how sweet'. and then kara's mom picked us up at my house and dropped us off at rite aid. and i'm sorry that she was pissed at you. but i dont know why she thought that there would be boys at my house or what the other point of having a cell phone would be. and we went inside the safeway and rite aid there and just hung out. and barb and sam met us too. and kate got in trouble by a policeman and it was sooo funny. but i would have done the same thing she would have if i noticed it. and then me kate kara n sarah walked back to kara's house. and then we went to lynbrook. and got picked up later. and yeah. it was a fun day. and tomorrow will be my family birthday dinner. fun. xoxo-claire

Hey dad look at me.
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time...
Doing things I wanna do
But it hurts when you disapprove all along.

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that I'm alright
And you can't change me

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard just to talk to you
But you don't understand

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect


i mean those words with every part of my heart.
and i'm just so sorry that i can't be perfect.
and i'm sorry that i'm not your idea of the ideal daughter.

Chandler: We're playing this game I learned at work. You have to name all the states in six minutes.
Ross: What? That's insanely easy!
Chandler: Now, that's a lot harder than it sounds. You always forget one, or in some cases...fourteen.
Monica: It's a stupid game and I wasn't playing against other people, so technically I didn't lose.
Ross: What? You forgot fourteen states?
Monica: Noboday cares about the Dakotas.
Chandler: Oh, okay, time's up!
Rachel: All right, I got 48.
Chandler: Oh that's not bad.
Joey: Say hello to the new champ of Chandler's dumb states game.
Ross: Wow, how many have you got?
Joey: 56!

I love them so much! I will be so sad when the 10th season is finished! Only several more episodes to go!

"...while they dance, how she holds him, pulls him close, while he dreams of another and counts the days until he lets her go, same old story that everybody knows, one heart holding on...and the other letting go..."